I don t have a Panera budget  I am here subversively  Hold

Summary:   I don t have a Panera budget  I am here subversively  Hold onto one of their cups and just walk in any time for a quick pick me up  They re usually so busy they don t even notice  Yeah I m that broke  Sad isn t it  The sale of my life continues on eBay  If you want please check out my  Sista needs to make some money I m currently phone less  Didn t lose service just had to sell the phone  I don t even need tons of money at this point  I need dough to get fingerprinted so I can do my new tutoring job dough to see my shrink so he ll prescribe me more meds and  of course a new phone  I ve been trying to save up for a Boost phone so I can just get everything all in one for just 50 a month   The phone issue is annoying right now because while I can continue to check my messages I have no idea when I m receiving them  I check in as frequently as possible  Also annoying is that while I saved all my phone numbers I saved them to a sim card that I can t read until I get a new phone  Gah  Maybe selling the phone so soon wasn t such a good idea but I thought I was really close to getting that Boost phone  The one job I got relies completely on calling me and me returning that call ASAP otherwise they just pass the jobs on down to the next person on their list  The other new job just wants me to get my fingerprints I did finally apply for unemployment  I really doubt I ll get it I wasn t laid off  I left of my own volition  I would love to come back to Connections but despite the fact that they have had 6 openings at least since I left and despite the fact that I have been highly qualified for 5 of them they have YET to grant me an interview  I think they are holding my bipolar against me which legally they cannot do  But also how can I prove it  It s not like the movie Philadelphia  where they re obviously discriminating against Tom Hanks   I just need a chance that s all  I haven t lost hope I know things will turn around  Things will always get the most frustrating before they get better  I also know that all of my little financial issues I could ask my mom for money  I could but I ve asked her for so much already  It s really bad  I just feel like she s done so much for me already  I mean she s paid my auto insurance got my car out of hock when it was towed and has kept me fed and housed and even given me occasional infusions of movies and Starbucks   I got to see a really old friend recently Jennifer Badger  I hadn t seen her since high school and we d actually known each other since elementary  She s doing wonderful and I m really happy for her  She s working in a field she loves has a husband who she d been friends with for several years before dating and marrying and a healthy 7 year old son  They all live in a rural area and have enough land for several horses ponies dogs cats and whatever other animals that need rescuing   She asked me what I d like for myself in 5 years  I ve always hated that question because I m full of such wanderlust and I thrive on change that I can t imagine what I ll be doing in month much less a year  But I thought about it I mean I ve always been such a dreamer and then it kind of felt like all those dreams were unrealistic  My dreams became more like basic needs   I do want more for myself not necessarily monetarily or materialistically  I want to work with kids teaching doing something with at risk youth anything really  But I also want a kid of my own I have given up on having a baby of my own  Now that I know I m bipolar that s not something I d wish on anyone so having my own baby is out of the question  But I know that I m a loving and caring individual and can make a huge difference in a kid who just needs to belong  I don t want the perfect caucasian baby that s the one everyone wants to adopt  I want the kid that really needs to be adopted regardless of race or age or even special needs   I want to be published not just self published but really published  I don t care if it s in a magazine a book or online but I want to be paid for the things I create  I want to really do more with my photography I want to be shown in galleries  I would love for at least one work of art to be accepted into the Museum of American Indian Arts  They don t have enough Mi kmaq work and it would mean so much for me to be collected by the very museum I studied in     I don t have a Panera budget  I am here subversively  Hold onto one of their cups and just walk in any time for a quick pick me up  They re usually so busy they don t even notice  Yeah I m that broke  Sad isn t it  The sale of my life continues on eBay  If you want please check out my  Sista needs to make some money I m currently phone less  Didn t lose service just had to sell the phone  I don t even need tons of money at this point  I need dough to get fingerprinted so I can do my new tutoring job dough to see my shrink so he ll prescribe me more meds and  of course a new phone  I ve been trying to save up for a Boost phone so I can just get everything all in one for just 50 a month   The phone issue is annoying right now because while I can continue to check my messages I have no idea when I m receiving them  I check in as frequently as possible  Also annoying is that while I saved all my phone numbers I saved them to a sim card that I can t read until I get a new phone  Gah  Maybe selling the phone so soon wasn t such a good idea but I thought I was really close to getting that Boost phone  The one job I got relies completely on calling me and me returning that call ASAP otherwise they just pass the jobs on down to the next person on their list  The other new job just wants me to get my fingerprints I did finally apply for unemployment  I really doubt I ll get it I wasn t laid off  I left of my own volition  I would love to come back to Connections but despite the fact that they have had 6 openings at least since I left and despite the fact that I have been highly qualified for 5 of them they have YET to grant me an interview  I think they are holding my bipolar against me which legally they cannot do  But also how can I prove it  It s not like the movie Philadelphia  where they re obviously discriminating against Tom Hanks   I just need a chance that s all  I haven t lost hope I know things will turn around  Things will always get the most frustrating before they get better  I also know that all of my little financial issues I could ask my mom for money  I could but I ve asked her for so much already  It s really bad  I just feel like she s done so much for me already  I mean she s paid my auto insurance got my car out of hock when it was towed and has kept me fed and housed and even given me occasional infusions of movies and Starbucks   I got to see a really old friend recently Jennifer Badger  I hadn t seen her since high school and we d actually known each other since elementary  She s doing wonderful and I m really happy for her  She s working in a field she loves has a husband who she d been friends with for several years before dating and marrying and a healthy 7 year old son  They all live in a rural area and have enough land for several horses ponies dogs cats and whatever other animals that need rescuing   She asked me what I d like for myself in 5 years  I ve always hated that question because I m full of such wanderlust and I thrive on change that I can t imagine what I ll be doing in month much less a year  But I thought about it I mean I ve always been such a dreamer and then it kind of felt like all those dreams were unrealistic  My dreams became more like basic needs   I do want more for myself not necessarily monetarily or materialistically  I want to work with kids teaching doing something with at risk youth anything really  But I also want a kid of my own I have given up on having a baby of my own  Now that I know I m bipolar that s not something I d wish on anyone so having my own baby is out of the question  But I know that I m a loving and caring individual and can make a huge difference in a kid who just needs to belong  I don t want the perfect caucasian baby that s the one everyone wants to adopt  I want the kid that really needs to be adopted regardless of race or age or even special needs   I want to be published not just self published but really published  I don t care if it s in a magazine a book or online but I want to be paid for the things I create  I want to really do more with my photography I want to be shown in galleries  I would love for at least one work of art to be accepted into the Museum of American Indian Arts  They don t have enough Mi kmaq work and it would mean so much for me to be collected by the very museum I studied in  

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